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Im so frustrated. Its like wanting to do something but you cant because youre too weak and helpless. Why does it seem like the devil always has the upperhand in the fight? Obviously, he doesnt but why am I believing his lies.
Im so hurt and it feels like im in a dry desert alone. I wish there was someone I could just share my feelings with, and pray with. But theres.. no one.
Sometimes I just want to give up or just run away from everyone and be alone. No one would notice I was even gone. I dont think anyone would care, really.
Im trying really hard but it seems like when I just got everything together and I finally got a grip of myself, Bam I screw up big time and Im back at the start again.
Like in a board game when youre so close to the finish but you mess up so you have to go back to the beginning.
I really need strength and prayer because as of right now, Im failing.